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"Why wank one off in the bushes? All I have to do is pull her into the bedroom. She doesn't even resist..." he laughed. "It's awesome!"

Looking at him she raised an eyebrow a smirk breaking out across her face. "So your using her... for her good looks and what I think you are saying is amazing sex?"

He turned serious. "I...I don't know. Usually I would have had sex with her once and then walked out of her life forever. But I stayed...and I don't know why..."

Cazz smirked now knowing what had happen what was going to happen to them both. "Well... I think I know what happened." She slowly came down the stairs laughing softly. Her eyes staring at him... but not only at him at his soul. As if she saw everything he was thinking, everything he was going to do, everything he ever did. She put a hand on his shoulder walking around him. "You... love her... you can't stand it but you have fallen head over heals for a girl you only wanted a good screw out of, but now you have gotten more then you barraged for... wouldn't you say so?" She smiled letting go of his shoulder going back to look for the book again.

"No! Love is weak. It means you're too attached to something. I can't...no..." he felt s little shocked. Love was soft. And he couldn't be soft. He couldn't!

"You call love weak but yet you do not fully understand to love something you might have to give up everyone... everything to hang on to that thing. Though you do grow attached to something, someone, you also are willing everyday to lose that thing you are attached to. You are weak one... because you have not loved yet." She looked at him dully. Was he going to have a break down?

"Weak without love." he said angrily. "I've crushed love without a thought. I've tortured ad more for fun. Love is pointless, death is true power..." secretly he felt like he was going to be sick. Love? Could it be? And what did she mean he was weak without love? It didn't make sense...

"Death has no power once you dead there is nothing left behind of you. Only the people the remember you but once they are gone so are you. Your memories mean nothing. Love though. People can remember that." She smiled slightly turning to look at him. "And yet you are falling so hard for it? You are falling for Blaire. I can see it in your eyes. I can see it in hers. Nothing you say will convince me other wise. You are falling... you did not trip over it or you would be able to get back up but you are falling and there is no bottom." Picking up another book she flipped through it looking for something.

He tried to give her an icy stare but gave up. He sighed. "I don't understand why. Why now? Why her?"

Looking over him she walked closer poking him in the chest slightly while pushing him backwards. "Because you do not decided! Who what when where why! You are not in control! No one is and once you except that. You will be set free." She backed off a little.

"I'm starting to wish I hadn't flirted with her way back in that shop. I should've pushed the book shelf on her like I usually would have, then I would by have this problem called love." he snarled.

(brb)

(i feel like I should have Blaire walk in like right now)

"Shoulda, woulda, coulda. Except what you think that this is a problem. If you want to that is fine, but its your problem... now make the best of it or pull an Edger Allen Poe and drink yourself to death." She flipped the book close looking back up at him.

He didn't know how to respond. He sat down hard with a sigh. "So complicated..."

"Yeah and it just gets worse from here. I know." She sighed a little looking at him. "Don't look so pitiful... dose not work for you." Cazz began to look around for the book again.

"What if I can't do it? What if I can't show her I love her? What if I just push her away and hurt her?"

Looking at him slowly she blinked a few times. What? "You just got to give it the one two try."

He nodded slightly. "I'm still not entirely convinced...how can I be sure it's love..."

"Go out... try to find a hot girl to hit on... and when you hear something pleading, crying with you on the inside not to hit that... not to kiss that stranger. You will know." She began to sit down next to him. "The first time is always the hardest."

"Okay. I'll try. But not now. I'm too drained..." he said lying back as letting his arms flop over the side of the chair.

She laughed slightly. "Wow... dude that is pathetic." Getting up she looked around slowly going to the door. "Good luck mate."

"Yeah. See ya." he said giving a slight wave.